As a perpetual worrier/perfectionist/Analytical, I've never been good at grand leaps of faith. Everything must be calculated; reason must prevail.
But here's the rub---you never can calculate life. Your greatest desires and whims are not quantifiable, nor is it always worthwhile to agonize over whether something is the right choice for you or not. Sometimes, your natural instinct will guide you, blaring like a car alarm in the middle of a parking garage. BEEP, BEEP! This is your way.
And the hardest part to navigate is not the fact that your instinct exists and shouts at you---it's your own ability (or inability) to listen to that part of yourself that is so true, so omniscient of exactly what you want and you deserve and, perhaps most importantly, what you can handle---that's the tricky part.
The point of preaching about all of this nonsense is simply to say this: I've had the car alarm screeching at me this week, and I can't ignore it anymore.
An opportunity suddenly arrived that seemed absolutely perfect. I wanted/thought I needed to accomplish this to be successful, and it arrived to me perfectly planned and ready to go. Everything seemed far too easy. And just as I was effectively (and metaphorically) about to sign on that dotted line, my senses kicked in and told me that this wasn't right for me right now. It didn't negate my desires, but rather my gut said, "Hey now, I know this is pretty excellent, but can you chill for a second and think about what you're doing? You're moving a little too fast for my liking." (Side note: thanks, Gut, for always kicking in at exactly the right time.)
In that hour, the logical (and admittedly more familiar) part of my brain kicked in and re-evaluated the scenario. Was it still perfect? Yes. Would I still like to add this experience to my list of accomplishments someday? Absolutely...but did I make the right decision? Without a doubt.
Again, I digress. My point is, when you get too excited and don't consider all the sides, your ambition interferes with your ability to think rationally. Excitement overtakes thought. The glitter of a new opportunity sometimes clouds pieces of your life previously kept in focus. And in those moments, I need to pause, take a deep breath, and repeat a great and succinct mantra to myself---
"You can do anything, but you can't do everything."
Writer, editor, and storyteller living in the Twin Cities.